My friend Lynda listened to my KCHUNG show live and when we spoke on the phone later that night Lynda said I should do spoken word. I said that I had not thought about spoken word in many years but I was thinking about making a book from the @8pmiam text. Lynda said that I should put my drawings in the book. Wow! that’s a fantastic idea! I never would have though of that on my own. Thanks Lynda for your inspiration!
Prior to doing the show I printed out a text version (in ascending order) to read on paper rather than reading directly from the Twitter account on my phone. Although I had glanced at a few of the entries I had not read the entire piece. And as I was reading I realized that I had very little memory of exactly what I was doing that year. It made me think about why and how we choose to remember what we do and how we forget all the rest.
I do recall that when I was writing these 140 character texts I tried to be as honest as possible. And when I was reading these personal journal entries live on the radio eight years later I felt extremely vulnerable and often humiliated. This was not a fantasy script I could hide behind -this was my life.
For one year from December 2008 until December 2009 I used a Twitter account as a disciplinary device to write about my life. Each day I would record precisely what I was doing at 8pm. This was my personal and anonymous journal. My name was not attached to the account and my posts were not intended for an audience. On Twitter I refused all followers and I followed no one. At 8pm I Am was a part of a larger ongoing narrative project inspired by Deleuze’s Cinema 2: The Time-Image (1989).
This had been a tough year for me: the US economy tanked, I ran out of freelance jobs/credit/cash and had to return to a day job I hated. Desperate for cash I auditioned for a reality TV show and ended up a finalist but did not get the gig. My partner of 10 years ran out of money too and took off to his family home in the UK leaving me to pay all of the bills for our house in Los Angeles. Our dog Mickey was sick and dying.
This Wednesday May 24 @ 5pm in Los Angeles (@ 8pm east coast time!) for the first time ever I will read as many of the 365 entries as I can in my one-hour program on KCHUNG. Hope you can join me!
The other day I told a friend about my new blog and he asked me “What is the theme?” I responded “My life and work… making art everyday since the 90’s.” In the early 90’s people accused me of being too 80’s. Now in the post-aughts I still feel very 90’s. And a sad week for the 90’s it is. RIP Soundgarden’s Chris Cornell. What a senseless and tragic loss. And it’s no surprise that Ativan fucked him up.
When I was at CalArts in the 90’s my schizophrenic boyfriend had a prescription for Ativan. One night after he was released from the psych ward he drove me so nuts that I took one of his pills so I could calm down. I had already been sobbing regularly about the sudden death of my father, and coming home to a crazy dude every night after editing my thesis film and going to class all day was just too much stress for me. So I took one of his Ativans and it made me so fucking wasted- I felt fantastic, warm, fuzzy inside and then I immediately passed out. It was definitely one of the best drugs I’d taken since I was a pill-head in the 80’s. It was so good it scared me.
Self-Portrait Roaming the Halls of Cal Arts in my Bathrobe & Slippers High on Vicodin and/or Documenting the Names of All the Pills I’d Taken for Pain and Pleasure (from the ‘zine Frontal Lobe #3: Giant Mice Eat My Nuts. published in 1999)
I just purchased schnibbe.net. This domain was not available until recently. I also own schnibbe.org. Too bad I didn’t think of purchasing schnibbe.com in 1999 when I first started buying domains & building websites. Schnibbe.comwas purchased by Cafe und Konditorei Schnibbe in 2000. They also own Schnibbe.de.
Perhaps one day they will let the schnibbe.com domain go and I will purchase schnibbe.com as well. I’m not sure yet what I’ll be doing here, but recently I’ve been thinking about my old keyword drawing project 120 days of Queries & I just found a tracking list in a babyhans.com folder from 2008 so here we are back to thinking about keywords again. I wonder who owned schnibbe.net & why that person let the domain ownership lapse? Perhaps it was it my brother Steven? I’ll have to ask him the next time I see him.
23 December 2011
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Other Woman I refused to give you back rubs
Because she was in massage school
And when you chained me to your bed
I knew that you’d chained her there before
The same way
She thought that I was dangerous
But she was just a secretary
I did not care what she thought
As long as she remained
Afraid of me
And I did not care what you said
I would never sleep with her now
The three of us could never be together
Now that you’ve told her
All of my secrets
You blamed me for your cigarette habit
I said But I always smoked
Before you knew me
In the end you told me that
You wanted to kill yourself
Because of me
I reminded you that
You’d always wanted to kill yourself
Before you met me
Hello my name is Margie Schnibbe and I am an artist obsessively making videos, drawings, paintings, sculptures, installations, writings, performances and zines every day since the 1990’s. Hans Schnibbe (1991-2007) is the name of my dachshund baby and although he is no longer with us on the earth plane I still love him very much. Hans & I moved from NYC to LA together in 1995 and he was my rock. One day I will share the story of the history of my life with Hans from the North Shore of Long Island to Gramercy Park to Rivington Street on the Lower East Side & back to Gramercy Park to the S/M House & Hotel 17, to Westchester County, to the National Shakespeare Conservatory in the Catskills, to CalArts in Valencia, CA to Silver Lake, LA. Hans and I had a long and complex history… best left for a future post.
The first website I built was called babyhans in honor of my beloved pet. In June of 2002 I created my first blog. When a friend told me I could have a blog without having to manage all of the coding I switched to Live Journal in 2004. My first entry was titled: RIP Bunny 1999-2004. (… so obv I have a pet thing going on!)
Now after a long hiatus I’m back to blogging! I’m not sure why yet. Maybe because I am horrified by SCROTUS and I hold Facebook and Twitter accountable for his being elected? … and I would like to spend less time on those toxic social media *sites? Or maybe because now that I an nearly a senior citizen (who ever thought I would live this long?) I have a desire to tell my stories? Or maybe because after talking about my life on my KCHUNG Radio show people were like hey (not so) crazy (old) lady! I never knew these things about you! I want to know more! Or maybe because tonight my date’s 1994 Mazda Miata broke down so I’m spending the night alone with my $23,000 in credit card debt and a $5 bottle of Trader Joe’s Sauvignon Blanc?
I’ve recently updated my Live Journal bio since I’m in a different career place/head space right now. My initial plan was to keep my blog at LJ but I’ve since learned that in December 2016 LJ servers moved to Russia and questionable content may be at risk of removal, so I’ve decided to start a new blog here at Word Press.
Call me sentimental, but thought I would share my old live journal bio before it disappears forever.
Babyhans Live Journal Bio 2004-2008
The best way to get to know me is to spend some time with me which is kind of hard because I’m always working and have caller ID and as of late prefer to spend most evenings at home curled up with a cheap bottle of wine and a good book or bad movie. However, at times I have been known to frequent various A-List -Hollywood, Art and Porn world parties. Beg me to name drop because it’s not my nature.
I happen to suffer from an acute “Forest for the Trees” syndrome and most times I am so caught up in the mundane details of my daily existence that I forget about much else.