Welcome to My Daily Self-Obsession(s) + RIP Chris Cornell

The other day I told a friend about my new blog and he asked me “What is the theme?” I responded “My life and work… making art everyday since the 90’s.” In the early 90’s people accused me of being too 80’s. Now in the post-aughts I still feel very 90’s. And a sad week for the 90’s it is. RIP Soundgarden’s Chris Cornell. What a senseless and tragic loss. And it’s no surprise that Ativan fucked him up.

When I was at CalArts in the 90’s my schizophrenic boyfriend had a prescription for Ativan. One night after he was released from the psych ward he drove me so nuts that I took one of his pills so I could calm down. I had already been sobbing regularly about the sudden death of my father, and coming home to a crazy dude every night after editing my thesis film and going to class all day was just too much stress for me. So I took one of his Ativans and it made me so fucking wasted- I felt fantastic, warm, fuzzy inside and then I immediately passed out. It was definitely one of the best drugs I’d taken since I was a pill-head in the 80’s.  It was so good it scared me.

Self-Portrait Roaming the Halls of Cal Arts in my Bathrobe & Slippers High on Vicodin and/or Documenting the Names of All the Pills I’d Taken for Pain and Pleasure (from the ‘zine Frontal Lobe #3: Giant Mice Eat My Nuts. published in 1999)

A generation mourns.

Easy Money

Let you touch me
Rub me down with oil
Pay me money
Take the pleasure real
Easy like taking a shit

Put you on a pedestal
Make you dance for me
Real slow and sleazy like
You’re giving me pleasure
Taking your money real easy

Put you in suspension
Tickle you between the legs
Clothesline tightly wrapped

Around the cock and balls
Clothespins giving me pleasure
Like I’m hanging out he laundry
Women’s work

Women’s Work from margie schnibbe on Vimeo.

Schnibbe.net: The Very First Post Then Soon Abandoned (December 2011)

I just purchased schnibbe.net. This domain was not available until recently. I also own schnibbe.org. Too bad I didn’t think of purchasing schnibbe.com in 1999 when I first started buying domains & building websites. Schnibbe.com was purchased by Cafe und Konditorei Schnibbe in 2000. They also own Schnibbe.de.
Perhaps one day they will let the schnibbe.com domain go and I will purchase schnibbe.com as well. I’m not sure yet what I’ll be doing here, but recently I’ve been thinking about my old keyword drawing project 120 days of Queries & I just found a tracking list in a babyhans.com folder from 2008 so here we are back to thinking about keywords again. I wonder who owned schnibbe.net & why that person let the domain ownership lapse? Perhaps it was it my brother Steven? I’ll have to ask him the next time I see him.

Margie Schnibbe
Los Angeles
23 December 2011

babyhans.com 100 keywords
april 2008:
#1 brandi needs
#2  margie schnibbe
#3  “brandi needs”
#4  babyhans
#5  margie schnibbe
#6  schnibbe
#7  butch studs
#8  brandi needs
#9  schnibbe
#10  “margie schnibbe”
#11  peter schnibbe
#12  mistress samantha
#13  infantilsim
#14  st matthew’s roman catholic church in hastings, ny
#15  “peter schnibbe”
#16  topless wrestling
#17  brandi needs
#18  santa con la
#19  “emo girl porn”
#20  teri weigel pornstar
#21  dimitri vorvolakos
#22  robert schnibbe
#23  “cheeba pet”
#24  cheeba pet
#25  mommy diaper “adult baby”
#26  monkeyview margie
#27  porno valley
#28  peep booths in los angeles
#29  paintnings
#30  silver lake 13 street gang
#31  mss
#32  nyc porn videographers
#33  n.y.c.hra.
#34  mother starts child smoking fetish
#35  mommy adult babies -blog -phon
#36  mistress samantha gallery
#37  mistress samantha’s
#38  los angeles bunny
#39  la santacon
#40  kona rock room at madonna inn
#41  kona jake 2-4 craigslist
#42  kaarina vieru
#43  jumbo’s clown room bouncer killed
#44  judy cocuzza
#45  jennifer schnibbe
#46  intitle:index.of.*.* / blonde *swf \
#47  los angeles santacon
#48  lydia lunch pubic hair
#49  margaret schnibbe
#50  mistress manhattan porn videos
#51  menthol cigarettes on male scrotum
#52  megumi topless video
#53  markus schnibbe
#54  maria beatty
#55  margies porn
#56  homes for bunnies, los angeles
#57  margie schnibbe
#58  margie
#59  infantilism poopy diaper video
#60  xxxx mom big old
#61  vorvolakas
#62  volvo 740 sunroof drawing
#63  veronica jett dominatrix
#64  tyler knight porn
#65  tweaker having sex video porn
#66  trt porno
#67  trannie1.jpg
#68  young tweak porn gallery
#69  trailer hung stud
#70  what brandi needs
#71  what happened to la couples at the entertanium studios
#72  www.venavirago.com
#73  www.razdavai.com
#74  www.fightingfelines
#75  www.babyhavans.com
#76  www.baby porno video
#77  www.baby porn
#78  www.assart.com
#79  wrestling girl fihgt
#80  wrestle girls and catfight
#81  tom schnibbe hastings
#82  terri weigel dominatrix
#83  santacon los angeles 2002
#84  santacon la
#85  santacon grove
#86 santa
#87  samantha silver porno
#88  salo robert zimmer
#89  saint matthew hasting ny
#90  robert sch
#91  pornstar neighbors
#92  santacon ventura
#93  sapporo.jpg
#94  reznik
#95  steven schnibbe
#96  steve schnibbe
#97  snuff room
#98  smille barnacle
#99  singing tiger
#100  silver lake song by chuck bronco

2 Poems Written for Kane in 1990

Other Woman
I refused to give you back rubs
Because she was in massage school
And when you chained me to your bed
I knew that you’d chained her there before
The same way
She thought that I was dangerous
But she was just a secretary
I did not care what she thought
As long as she remained
Afraid of me
And I did not care what you said
I would never sleep with her now
The three of us could never be together
Now that you’ve told her
All of my secrets

You blamed me for your cigarette habit
I said But I always smoked
Before you knew me
In the end you told me that
You wanted to kill yourself
Because of me
I reminded you that
You’d always wanted to kill yourself
Before you met me

My Babyhans Live Journal History and Bio

Hello my name is Margie Schnibbe and I am an artist obsessively making videos, drawings, paintings, sculptures, installations, writings, performances and zines every day since the 1990’s. Hans Schnibbe (1991-2007) is the name of my dachshund baby and although he is no longer with us on the earth plane I still love him very much. Hans & I moved from NYC to LA together in 1995 and he was my rock. One day I will share the story of the history of my life with Hans from the North Shore of Long Island to Gramercy Park to Rivington Street on the Lower East Side & back to Gramercy Park to the S/M House & Hotel 17, to Westchester County, to the National Shakespeare Conservatory in the Catskills, to CalArts in Valencia, CA to Silver Lake, LA. Hans and I had a long and complex history… best left for a future post.

Amanda Lepore with Baby Hans at Hotel 17 in NYC- 1995

The first website I built was called babyhans in honor of my beloved pet. In June of 2002 I created my first blog. When a friend told me I could have a blog without having to manage all of the coding I switched to Live Journal in 2004. My first entry was titled: RIP Bunny 1999-2004. (… so obv I have a pet thing going on!)
Now after a long hiatus I’m back to blogging! I’m not sure why yet. Maybe because I am horrified by SCROTUS and I hold Facebook and Twitter accountable for his being elected? … and I would like to spend less time on those toxic social media *sites? Or maybe because now that I an nearly a senior citizen (who ever thought I would live this long?) I have a desire to tell my stories? Or maybe because after talking about my life on my KCHUNG Radio show people were like hey (not so) crazy (old) lady! I never knew these things about you! I want to know more! Or maybe because tonight my date’s 1994 Mazda Miata broke down so I’m spending the night alone with my $23,000 in credit card debt and a $5 bottle of Trader Joe’s Sauvignon Blanc?

*BTW- Instagram is still okay.

Hans Object of Desire from margie schnibbe on Vimeo.

I’ve recently updated my Live Journal bio since I’m in a different career place/head space right now.  My initial plan was to keep my blog at LJ but I’ve since learned that in December 2016 LJ servers moved to Russia and questionable content may be at risk of removal, so I’ve decided to start a new blog here at Word Press.

Call me sentimental, but thought I would share my old live journal bio before it disappears forever.

Babyhans Live Journal Bio 2004-2008
The best way to get to know me is to spend some time with me which is kind of hard because I’m always working and have caller ID and as of late prefer to spend most evenings at home curled up with a cheap bottle of wine and a good book or bad movie. However, at times I have been known to frequent various A-List -Hollywood, Art and Porn world parties. Beg me to name drop because it’s not my nature.
I happen to suffer from an acute “Forest for the Trees” syndrome and most times I am so caught up in the mundane details of my daily existence that I forget about much else.


I am very Scorpio with Leo rising and moon in Libra. I am a loyal friend.