Margie Schnibbe

In Berlin my dreams are
most vivid
Most nights I dream  of
death
Last night I dreamed of
you

At yoga in the park today I attempted a headstand for the first time & was able to hold my bent legs in the air, but as soon as I straightened them upward those legs flipped right over my head and I did a somersault hitting the grass hard. When I pulled myself onto my knees I  could not stop laughing. I’m usually so uptight about going upside down and anything to do with neck stuff since I read this NY Times Magazine (yoga injury) article in 2012 …  but today’s experience was a total blast. This was a real breakthrough for me.  I felt like a kid again and ready to conquer the world!  And tonight my neck and back have never felt better! After yoga and the day job I went to the gym and ran a couple of miles on the treadmill. I’m brainstorming ways to dig myself out of this financial hole I’m in. Last night I signed up for the website Seeking Arrangement and I’m currently waiting for my profile to be approved (takes 24-48 hours). I am looking for an “investor”. Will I get any date requests? Or am I too old? Will the potential dates be confused by my profile description that was cut and pasted from numerous art grant applications?  Should I have simply stated that I like hiking, cooking, EDM and white wine? I could have used my East LA College student email to get a discount rate on “premium services” (whatever that means)  but I don’t want hooker spam going to my college email account that gets forwarded to my regular gmail account. Oh sh*t did I just call Seeking Arrangement a hooker site? But it’s not an escort site!  It’s a dating site for regular folks who just want other regular folks to give them money and buy them gifts… in exchange for *cough cough* intimate companionship…

photo credit: Tomoko Matsushita

Megumi Portrait of a Dominatrix from margie schnibbe on Vimeo.
Angry at her boyfriend, punk rock dominatrix Megumi trashes a loaf of Wonder bread.

Umm obv I had some issues with this year’s Valentine’s Day date ….

Tonight I’ve been updating the excel spreadsheet I made to log my credit card debt. Yes I’ve been avoiding looking at this document for the past six months and yes I’m a big fat mess! But fuck this debt! I will win this battle!  I’m feeling like an old lady listening to pop music I loved when I was a kid.  I’m making a plan and happy to be alive! And I’m disco dancing! Who wants to buy some art? Who needs a tax write off? I have a fiscal sponsor now! DM me for more details!

This is one of the silliest bits of spam I’ve received at margieschnibbe.com lately. It made me smile.

From: sjshsk
Subject: diaper

Dear CEO:

Now our company wants to purchase a batch of paper diapers. If you can provide the products, please reply emails to get detailed purchasing information of products from us, in order to get further conversation for us.

Wish for successful cooperation.

Looking forward to hearing from you soon.

Contact person: Willie

E-mail:  mwmdmv@xxxxxxxxxxxxxx.com (redacted)

 

Eva Hesse – Trailer from Toronto Jewish Film Festival on Vimeo.

I watched this documentary on Netflix over the holidays. Thank you Eva Hesse for your inspiration. I’m making sculpture again.

I just replaced the corrupted hard drive on my iMac and had to download a new Creative Cloud package so no more Adobe Fireworks for me… very sad! I loved Fireworks! At least I have a copy of Fireworks CS on my old G5 from 2005…. an ancient dinosaur … just like me lol…

BTW- Thanks to Cedars Sinai Urgent Care for the stylish mask and excellent medical care. Good to know that all I had was strep throat and not the flu or oral gonorrhea!

Dirty Dancing for Disney: My Gong Show Audition #Fail from margie schnibbe on Vimeo.

A production company saw some of my performance work and asked me to make an audition video for the Gong Show. When they found out that I had sex with a prostitute on realty TV, I was denied an interview because Disney was producing the show. Music, performance, production design, camera & edit by Margie. Special thanks to Molly Shea!

 

photo by my friend James Oseland

Last night I dreamt I was helping an old professor of mine prepare for a party in her house. My father was there, but he is dead. There were two bodies of my father actually and both standing around looking withdrawn and out of place. My father was younger than I ever remember him being. He also had a day or two or beard growth, something my father would never have, He shaved every day at least once and sometimes more if he was going to a social occasion in the evening. His skin was reddish brown as if he’d been burnt from long regular periods of exposure to too much sun. His skin was more tanned that I remembered it ever being. There was a brown or burnt mark on his cheek as if he’d been further burned in one smallish spot, like from leaning against a light bulb.

I kept a distance from him. I could feel him ask me: Why are you afraid of me? I don’t recall if he had an audible voice or not. We may have been communicating telepathically. He thought that I possessed some prejudice about him. I didn’t understand what he was talking about because I’d always believed that he was the prejudice one not me. Was I afraid to talk to him because I was and prejudice about his being dead? Or was I prejudice because he was blue-collar and sun burnt from working outside? He did not look happy being dead. There were two exact images of him as if he was split in two, but two complete bodies. One spoke to me, and the other stood was off to the side, maybe looking away at the people in the other room or outside. He looked like he was forty years old, not eighty-something., the age he would be if he were alive today. Although he looked lost and kind of sad, he told me not to be afraid.

I looked around and saw other party guests off in the distance- people close in age to him who are still alive. I saw my partner’s parents and my old professor. My mother was not there. She was not invited to the party.